halloweeeeen // Friday, October 29, 2010
I'm posting again, which is quite weird because i don't do this often. Anyway i have been practicing my maths on my EOY paper and trying out some questions. Even though i tried, i can't solve many still and I'm confused easily. I'm not really looking forward for my maths tuition tomorrow. It's going to be awkward because it's one on one tuition. I also just found out something interesting from my older sister. It's about Halloween being Haram and should not be celebrated by muslims out there. Woah, it's huge information and after reading a article about it, i understand why should we muslims not celebrate it. (: after reading that i also just realised i'm not really a good muslim... i have been skipping some prayers and other stuff. I should really be a better muslim. I guess that is my aim as well kick ass my O levels. I'm totally going to work hard this holiday! JIAYO Refah!!
I did it! // Monday, October 18, 2010
It's kind of unbelievable that i drew and color something up to my standard (:
// Wednesday, September 29, 2010
I'm updating again :D
Today was my most productive day, which is quite unbelievable. I finally grasped the concept of Chemistry equations and POA( which i did not feel sleepy at all during lesson!)I'm quite pleased for myself. I think I'm going to study chemistry after using the computer but I'm not sure now. I'm such a lazy ass. Today i went home, did my FN, fell asleep, wake up, eat dinner and continue doing my work. It seems like a routine these few days and exams are coming closer. Friday is the first paper and I'm nervous for it. I want to do well not hope to do well. i wish i was a genius but i know it won't come true. The only thing i can do for myself is improve myself continuously which I'm trying to do. Anyway i hate my typos! Shoo typos!
pathetic excuses // Sunday, September 26, 2010
Today was an okay day. as usual i slack off and didn't do much work at all. I'm a pathetic human being who is so lazy and incompetent. Sometimes i'm digusted at my laziness yet i never try to change myself. What is wrong with me? I think i need some sense knock in my full of nonsense brain.When i look in the future, I'm not sure i end up a successful person at all. My other friends are all so hard-working dedicating time to their studies and work and all i do is well, nothing. I'm fed up by myself! I could have been doing my work now instead of posting this but look, i choose to waste my time instead.Truly pathetic being, i have become this year. I'm unsure of myself now. Who am i really? I look in the mirror and all i see is my stupid refelction. I'm getting tired of myself. Come on, i have to do better this year and yet my whole brain doesn't care.Setiously, pathetic. Knock some sense into me!
// Saturday, September 25, 2010
I was too tired to post yesterday, sadly. Yesterday NPCC jalan raya was the most fun jalan raya i ever went. (: Anyway today, was okay as well. I'm in love with Epik High songs especially "Run." I find it beautiful and amazing. I'm also now checking pictures drawn my people in deviant art and I'm well stunned. The drawings drawn are so beautiful and i wish i could draw like that. I don't think I'm good enough to be able to draw up to their standard. A lot of effort must have been made to be able to draw like that. Sometimes i wish i took art instead of POA and FN.If life was that easy...
isn't it gorgeous?!
Refelctions // Thursday, September 23, 2010
Well, i can't believe i am back again.
I just wanted to write something, well after looking at one of my past classmates tumblr.It seems so weird for me to be here, typing. i guess it's okay at times, but quite plain weird to me. That is why you don't see me blogging. I cleared all of my old post as i wanted to start afresh. After reading my classmates tumblr, i realized that people do change as i used to know him as a quite arrogant person and his English wasn't top class but reading his post make me seems as if i lack fanciful vocabulary which is kind of "funny" as I'm considered average for English. I think i sometimes reflect on myself too much especially when i walk home, thinking about the day's event, studies and etc. It is unbelievable how many things have change this year, classmates i knew are now people who are do not really talk to. I'm not really good at interacting with people but i do miss those times as they were especially memorable.Exams are coming soon and I'm dreading them, time sure flies. It was yesterday and now it's today. I want to change to a better person but i lack the motivation and I'm getting extremely lazy . I've been slacking like crazy and copying homework from others, making me feel stupid and bad at times.I don't like taking advantage of people but I'm not responsible enough to complete my homework. Certain classes are okay like geography as I'm able to understand it easily, but subjects such as principles of accounting (poa) i killing me. I'm frustrated at my un-ability to understand and comprehend what the teachers talk about and my brains seem so fuzzy during lessons, like it shuts down automatically. I really want to do better, next year is the O-levels.I wish i was a baby now, there is no need to worry about such things. Sighs* It's easier said than to be done. Anyway i guess I'll be going and slacking like crazy. (kill my lazy ass?)
Defeat is not the worst of failures. Not to have tried is the true failure.
George Edward Woodberry