Refelctions // Thursday, September 23, 2010
Well, i can't believe i am back again.
I just wanted to write something, well after looking at one of my past classmates tumblr.It seems so weird for me to be here, typing. i guess it's okay at times, but quite plain weird to me. That is why you don't see me blogging. I cleared all of my old post as i wanted to start afresh. After reading my classmates tumblr, i realized that people do change as i used to know him as a quite arrogant person and his English wasn't top class but reading his post make me seems as if i lack fanciful vocabulary which is kind of "funny" as I'm considered average for English. I think i sometimes reflect on myself too much especially when i walk home, thinking about the day's event, studies and etc. It is unbelievable how many things have change this year, classmates i knew are now people who are do not really talk to. I'm not really good at interacting with people but i do miss those times as they were especially memorable.Exams are coming soon and I'm dreading them, time sure flies. It was yesterday and now it's today. I want to change to a better person but i lack the motivation and I'm getting extremely lazy . I've been slacking like crazy and copying homework from others, making me feel stupid and bad at times.I don't like taking advantage of people but I'm not responsible enough to complete my homework. Certain classes are okay like geography as I'm able to understand it easily, but subjects such as principles of accounting (poa) i killing me. I'm frustrated at my un-ability to understand and comprehend what the teachers talk about and my brains seem so fuzzy during lessons, like it shuts down automatically. I really want to do better, next year is the O-levels.I wish i was a baby now, there is no need to worry about such things. Sighs* It's easier said than to be done. Anyway i guess I'll be going and slacking like crazy. (kill my lazy ass?)
Defeat is not the worst of failures. Not to have tried is the true failure.
George Edward Woodberry

